I truly believe that you can do anything you want. I believe that all of you can. This is a good thing, the belief in others, the problem lies in the fact that I don’t believe the same is true for myself.
I lie
I will stand here and tell you until I am blue in the face and your ears have fallen off from my yeah-mering on that I do believe I can do anything I want. That is a big fat lie. I am lying to myself as well you. Sorry about the ears, that is kind of a huge bummer.
I would like to think of my self as a confident person but that is really just me playing dress up most of the times. This is not to say that I don’t have brief moments where I am just dripping with confidence, I tend to get myself in trouble in those moments it seems.
Making changes
I have this one annoying friend who seems to have caught on to my lies and likes to point out that I don’t give myself enough credit. Damn it I’m going to have to work harder on my disguise I guess. Anyway I recently was “hired” to do some custom design work for this friend. I use quotes around hired because there was no formal process, just a casual conversation and the promise of cookies.
So I worked on the kick ass header for his blog, it is kick ass I have been told more than once, so it must be true. He was asking me if there was a link that he could use in a post that he was writing to direct people to contact me if they wanted me to do some graphics for them. My first and default answer was no there wasn’t one, and it was truly no big deal (insert downplay of my talent here).
As the day went on I got to thinking about the fact that maybe, just maybe others were on to something. Maybe I really did deserve the praise that I have gotten for my design work. Maybe those stupid voices that like to piss on my dreams were wr…WRONG!
They were wrong, I think this was one of those Ah-a moments. I have a skill/talent that I should be using and charging people for the “product” that I can produce with this skill/talent. I am worthy of the accolades that I have been given when I do make good use of this skill/talent.
Birth of a new adventure
I am officially hanging out my shingle as a graphic designer. Just typing those words make my heart pound. I am going to put together some of the stuff I have done personally as well as what I just finished for E.S. Kelly. While I don’t think I am going to be able to quit my real job anytime soon, it is something I enjoy doing I might as well put it out there. Now that I have started believing in myself, even just a little but there is no telling what I can accomplish. So look for more information to come about JustALittleSnarky Designs.