This is not as racy as it sounds. I am currently doing research for my jaunt in to Script Frenzy in the month of April. It is put on by the same lovely people of NaNoWriMo but this time it is a 100 page script in 30 days. We, when I say we I am talking about my writing partner whom I worked with last year when we “won”, are trying to flush out what we want to write this year. The first idea was to take what I had written for NaNo and turn it in to an action movie, because the main character was supposed to be all bad ass and what not and that didn’t really come across in the way I wrote it. But now I think we may be taking Mae Hamm in a completely different direction. I love the character and she has so much potential to be awesome I want to do something great with her.

At this point I am researching Burlesque to see if Mae would be a good fit for it. We are still unsure of what the story line would be, the when and how are still open for discussion. I think we are going to set most of it in San Francisco, but that is not set in stone either. It will be interesting to see where this goes.

I am not a burlesque dancer, I really don’t know too much about it. It was suggested on twitter to check out A Wink and a Smile: The Art of Burlesque so I did, it follows a group of women through a class on how to burlesque in Seattle. Mind you this was all well before this grand plan for Script Frenzy was thought up. It was awesome I was hooked I wanted to learn more about this art form. As with a lot of things I end up a bit obsessed with learning all about whatever the subject is. Right now it is burlesque, the next thing I did was watch another documentary called Behind the Burly Q it was fascinating because it was all about the classic burlesque stars, many of them told their own stories in it.

I was talking to DH about this plan and it dawned on me that I would have to learn at least the basic of burlesque to be able to write about it convincingly. So I spent the evening googling pasties, how to make them, how to attach them and how to twirl the tasseled ones. In the course of the research I jokingly said that DH would end up liking the process of me learning about burlesque because I would have new skills to show off.

What I didn’t know is that while I am comfortable being naked around him even with the lights on, and I know he thinks I am sexy no matter. When it came to showing him a shimmy I was mortified at the thought of this. There was a 20 minute conversation about why I was all freaked out about giving a wiggle to the twins. There was much hemming and hawing on my part, nervous giggling and procrastinating. Finally with my eyes closed tight and after a deep breath I gave the girls a meek shimmy. I did it I shimmied, naked.

Most of the time I fancy myself as a well adjusted person, who has body issues, we all really do but I am aware when the crazy little mean voice in my head is chattering at me. I didn’t realize how little I value my ability to be sexy. So all in the name of “research” I am going to learn to burlesque and share that progress with DH. I have heard the women of the documentaries talk about how liberating the process can be. I will have to get back to you on that.