justalittlesnarky

Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

justalittlesnarky - Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

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Day 7 there was rest

Today is my rest day from the Hip Hop Abs month long challenge. I have never been one that is really big on organized… well much of anything to be honest about it. But I can say whole hartedly that today I'm missing not having a scheduled workout.

That is something that I would have never said in a million years. So what is different this time? What is it that drives me? I'm not sure that I know how to answer those questions but something that Joe Cross said on a segment of Dr. Oz made me stop and think.

“We spend the first 40 years trying to kill ourselves and the next 40 to to save ourselves.” At least that was the general gist of it. I turned 40 last year so this hit close to home for me. I guess this is me trying to make up for the first 40 where I didn't really care about my body or my health for that matter.

Sure I would go on a diet here and there but none of them ever made any sort of long term changes. Finding out that I have issues with gluten made some of this easy, not that being gluten free has been easy it has been anything but. It cuts out a bunch of my favorite comfort foods, bread being the big one.

It is even deeper then just not being able to have the stuff. I have made so many changes in the last few moths that are healthy I don't know if I could go back to eating the way I did just 2 short months ago. I don't like the way processed food tasted if it not all natural it has a weird taste to it. That is not to say that I don't sometimes still eat stuff in excess but it is a completely different type of food. No I will od on organic strawberries and not cookies.

I know that I may never get to be a size 2 but I am very proud of the fact that I have made all the changes that are leading me to see that I can make positive changes that I can see in the size of clothing that I wear. I was able to buy a few things from Old Navy this weekend that were in the ladies section. I have only ever gotten stuff from the men's things, hoodies and what not.

It really brought it home that my body was changing. I hope that was enough so that I don't pull my normal self sabotage. The few times that I did try proved more difficult, due to the fact that I feel so much better without the gluten, and most of my go to foods are all gluten based.

 

My Merry May Challenge

You hear people talk about how they want to get back to what they weighed before:

  • College
  • Having kids
  • Turning 40
  • Just to name a few, there are as many before stories as there are people.

I don’t have a before story, partially because I have been overweight my whole life, yes even as a kid. Having grown up know this fact made me steer clear of scales for most of my adult life. So I truly have no idea what I was at my “thinnest”. I know that I have gained weight over the years but exactly how much there is no way to know that. I just know that my clothes got bigger as I moved towards 40.

While I guess I should not worry about this lack of before story it cause a very strange thing to happen for me. Because I have no frame of reference for not being fat the simple thought that I’m making progress towards not being fat anymore cause what can only be described as fear. This fear leads me to start to sabotage the efforts that are producing results. I settle back in to my familiar fat pants and say shucks next time maybe I will make it.

It was not until recent events have lead me to where I am now that I really saw what was going on with this horrible cycle that I exist in. So far due to radical changes in what I can eat I have lost more than 20lbs. It is the most I have ever lost at one time, if I had to guess I would say that all the times I have tried to lose weight over my 40 years I probably have lost 500lbs or so sadly it always comes back with friends. The last time I lost double digits was when I was on weight watchers years ago. I hit 16lbs and promptly quit going to meeting or tracking anything. Shucks maybe next time.

This time I tried really hard to go back to my old habits but not being able to eat anything with gluten in it has really put a crimp in my plan to gain it back. This is a good thing you are thinking to yourself:

  • What are you bitching about?
  • I would be totally stoked it I had lost 20lbs.
  • What is wrong with you?

Not to worry. I had the very similar thoughts cross my mind when this pattern started to become clear. How can losing weight scare the crap out of me so badly? I really don’t have an answer to this question, but I do have some thoughts about it. I have always been the fat person in the group. Even with my friends who were overweight I was the heaviest. So my personality and persona where formed around that fact. I don’t know how to be a thinner person. I don’t have any experience at that and I really don’t do with not having at least base line first hand experience with things in my life. Pretty sure that there is now handy how to books on this subject, if I’m wrong let me know in the comments below I would love to read them.

At this time my fat clothes are too big on me so that makes me look a little bit like a homeless person. The problem being that if I get rid of them and I manage to find a way to sabotage this then I will have to buy new fat clothes and I really hate shopping in the 3’ x 3’ section at nation chain stores (yes Target I pointing fingers at you) or “specialty” shops where everything is crazy expensive. So not only am I still fat but now I’m broke too replacing stuff that I got rid of.

This time I did get rid of a lot of the stuff that is too big on me. My closet space is the size of a phone booth and there is just not room to hang on to ill-fitting items. It was a scary moment to drop them in to the donation box and drive away.

700 words later we finally get to what this post is really about. I am going to be doing the Hip Hop Abs 30 day challenge. I am fairly certain that I will not be taking any of these moves to a club near me, well ever. I dance like a white person, a really white person and I don’t think that Shaun T is a wizard and will be able to fix that. I do home to strengthen my core and have fun with it. I am also not sure I will see abs anytime soon, they have been safely hidden way for 40 years it’s going to take a lot more than just a fun dance fitness video find them.

I was talking with some people on twitter today about what age things start being inappropriate. Here is the link to it. I fall on the side of this debate that do what makes you happy no matter what age you are. Once I hit my goal weight and can stay there for a year I am getting my belly button pierced and new boobs and I don’t care if I’m 60 at the time. Side note I also have my nose pierced, too many holes in my ears and tattoos just for a point of reference in case you needed it.

I may do some videos for update but I’m not really sure yet, tonight is my first workout. I can say that I’m a bit scared but excited to give it a go. Oh I need before photos too. Eck there will be skin showing. Great now I have “Call me maybe” running through my head. And so do you now sorry about that.

Do you have a challenge for the merry month of May? Find me on twitter I’m really good at cheerleading others success.

What Have I Gotten In To Now.

Every year at this time of year I would participate in something called Script Frenzy. But do to budget issue they discontinued that. I found myself with no real want to do for CampNano. I'm now able to participate in the A to Z Challenge.

I will be posting daily except on Sunday. Each day has a letter to go with it, starting with A on Monday and ending with Z at the end of the month. I also think that I will shot for a photo that I take daily as well that corresponds to the letter as well.

Just because I'm crazy like that I'm also going to participate in CampNano as well. So I will be doing a post a day and writing 1,667 words a day for this month. That is a whole lot of writing in front of me.

Are you participating in either one of them?

The rest of Day 6 or Damnit I quite moment!

The post that a posted yesterday here was all lovely and viewed with rose-colored glasses. Well by the time that late afternoon rolled I went to a whole different place it was not a good place either. I have seen all this positive effects on myself that one would thing that they would out way everything and there is no way I would go back.

Well 3 o’clock rolled around and I was just done with all of it. I didn’t want to drink and more damn green juice or drink anything for that matter. I wanted a cookie or coffee maybe a lovely cheese burger wrapped in bacon, and a pound for french fries. But no I was stuck at my desk sipping on some green liquid that looked like something that would live in a long forgotten swimming pool. While all this negative crap was swirling in my head I could not help notice that it was 3:00 pm and I was not looking for a nap. Damn it! It really was making me feel better.

I had to stop and pick up some more cucumbers, because they seem to be the corner-stone to all the juice I make. I’m still seriously thinking of just trashing this whole new thing and go right back to where I was before I started this, tried all the time and craving carbs and sugar. My stop was to be quick but I spent sometime wandering in circle in the produce department. Confused by the fact that there where no cucumbers to be seen anywhere. How could they not have cucumbers? See its a sign that I should give up on the mess, right? Well I pulled out my “Magic iPhone by Apple” and did I quick search it turns out that you can juice a zucchini they had tons of them so problem solved.

Well sort of, the delay with the cucumber debacle made my quick trip longer and I was starving, so I headed over to the nut section to pick up some nuts to tide me over. I still had to pick up the guys dinner too so it was still going to be a good while before I got home and could eat. I grabbed a jar of nuts didn’t look at it anymore than to find out that it was a mix of almonds, pistachios, cranberries and cherries. I didn’t see that it had granola in it or that both the cherries and cranberries were treated with sugar, before being added to what looks healthy.

I got to the car and opened the jar took out some, it was super sweet that was not right? I looked a the label sure enough there was not only what was listed on the front in the jar in my so-called healthy snack. I was desperate at this point so I had a few more small handfuls as I sat waiting in the KFC drive thru. Mindlessly looking at twitter or facebook i was still eating the mix. I started to feel weird, it was the sugar rush from the tainted fruit is the only thing I could think of. I felt all jittery, I was no longer cold so there was something to that but I didn’t like the way I felt.

By the time I got home was crashing for the sugar, I had a headache and I just wanted to sleep. But I still had my dinner to make, it was zucchini with onions and some black beans it was really good. It helped a bit will the way I was feeling. I managed to make it all the way to bed time without a nap.

I noticed that my skin feels tighter, but not in a I need lotion kinda of way. Last night I noticed the deep wrinkle that I have on my forehead is less deep, gone if I don’t mess with it. My boobs, which are very how shall we say it ample. That is a good thing but gravity likes them very much which causes one to need to wear a bra. Well I was looking at them last night and many of the stretch marks are gone. Just gone I didn’t do anything to them not special lotions or creams. Just a side effect to the juice.

So I didn’t give up on this how could I quit on something that is reversing my wrinkles and making my boobs look better. Those are both all really good things. So I got up on Day 7 and made my juice for the day. Today I’m in a better place. There where no cheese burgers wrapped in bacon. I like how I feel I don’t want to mess that up.

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