justalittlesnarky

Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

justalittlesnarky - Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

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Day 7 there was rest

Today is my rest day from the Hip Hop Abs month long challenge. I have never been one that is really big on organized… well much of anything to be honest about it. But I can say whole hartedly that today I'm missing not having a scheduled workout.

That is something that I would have never said in a million years. So what is different this time? What is it that drives me? I'm not sure that I know how to answer those questions but something that Joe Cross said on a segment of Dr. Oz made me stop and think.

“We spend the first 40 years trying to kill ourselves and the next 40 to to save ourselves.” At least that was the general gist of it. I turned 40 last year so this hit close to home for me. I guess this is me trying to make up for the first 40 where I didn't really care about my body or my health for that matter.

Sure I would go on a diet here and there but none of them ever made any sort of long term changes. Finding out that I have issues with gluten made some of this easy, not that being gluten free has been easy it has been anything but. It cuts out a bunch of my favorite comfort foods, bread being the big one.

It is even deeper then just not being able to have the stuff. I have made so many changes in the last few moths that are healthy I don't know if I could go back to eating the way I did just 2 short months ago. I don't like the way processed food tasted if it not all natural it has a weird taste to it. That is not to say that I don't sometimes still eat stuff in excess but it is a completely different type of food. No I will od on organic strawberries and not cookies.

I know that I may never get to be a size 2 but I am very proud of the fact that I have made all the changes that are leading me to see that I can make positive changes that I can see in the size of clothing that I wear. I was able to buy a few things from Old Navy this weekend that were in the ladies section. I have only ever gotten stuff from the men's things, hoodies and what not.

It really brought it home that my body was changing. I hope that was enough so that I don't pull my normal self sabotage. The few times that I did try proved more difficult, due to the fact that I feel so much better without the gluten, and most of my go to foods are all gluten based.

 

Happy Birthday my way, damnit!

Today is my birthday, it should be a day to celebrate right. Well this year I really don’t feel like celebrating well to be honest I don’t feel like doing all the work that would be involved with celebrating my birthday.

 

If I had a party I would have to clean the house cook the food entertain the people. Well that brings up one issue with that is there is really on one to invite to said party so why bother with the cleaning and cooking right. My Best Friend lives on the east coast, my family is in Oregon and Arizona. Neither group travels very well. While you may feel that is very sad that poor Snarky has no friends.

 

The thing that really annoys me is that people won’t just let me be about not wanting to do anything. I have to explain repeatedly that I don’t want to do anything, that I don’t want to go anywhere for my birthday. It my damn day, it is right there in the “today is my birthday” my being the word that is the most important. Why can’t I pick doing nothing from the big list of options. But NO! Some how nothing is not an acceptable option.

 

Well that is just what I did, nothing special on MY special day and it was awesome. I had what I wanted for dinner and the kid made brownies for desert. So those of you who are bothered by my choice of nothing just back off and do something that you want to for your birthday, this one is mine.

 

Besides I had to work today so that killed what I really wanted to do, which was spend the whole day in my pj’s and nap a couple of times, so I went with this option.

 

I believe in you…I really do

I truly believe that you can do anything you want. I believe that all of you can. This is a good thing, the belief in others, the problem lies in the fact that I don’t believe the same is true for myself.

I lie

I will stand here and tell you until I am blue in the face and your ears have fallen off from my yeah-mering on that I do believe I can do anything I want. That is a big fat lie. I am lying to myself as well you. Sorry about the ears, that is kind of a huge bummer.

I would like to think of my self as a confident person but that is really just me playing dress up most of the times. This is not to say that I don’t have brief moments where I am just dripping with confidence, I tend to get myself in trouble in those moments it seems.

Making changes

I have this one annoying friend who seems to have caught on to my lies and likes to point out that I don’t give myself enough credit. Damn it I’m going to have to work harder on my disguise I guess. Anyway I recently was “hired” to do some custom design work for this friend. I use quotes around hired because there was no formal process, just a casual conversation and the promise of cookies.

So I worked on the kick ass header for his blog, it is kick ass I have been told more than once, so it must be true. He was asking me if there was a link that he could use in a post that he was writing to direct people to contact me if they wanted me to do some graphics for them. My first and default answer was no there wasn’t one, and it was truly no big deal (insert downplay of my talent here).

As the day went on I got to thinking about the fact that maybe, just maybe others were on to something. Maybe I really did deserve the praise that I have gotten for my design work. Maybe those stupid voices that like to piss on my dreams were wr…WRONG!

They were wrong, I think this was one of those Ah-a moments. I have a skill/talent that I should be using and charging people for the “product” that I can produce with this skill/talent. I am worthy of the accolades that I have been given when I do make good use of this skill/talent.

Birth of a new adventure

I am officially hanging out my shingle as a graphic designer. Just typing those words make my heart pound. I am going to put together some of the stuff I have done personally as well as what I just finished for E.S. Kelly. While I don’t think I am going to be able to quit my real job anytime soon, it is something I enjoy doing I might as well put it out there. Now that I have started believing in myself, even just a little but there is no telling what I can accomplish. So look for more information to come about JustALittleSnarky Designs.

Do you believe in yourself as much as you do others around you?

Waiting no more

Waiting! I spend a huge amount of time waiting, on the right time, the right person to do something, someone to give me the green light, approval from everyone, to have the perfect plan and money. That is just some of the ways I spend time waiting, I am pretty sure that there are a million more ways that I don’t even realize that play into delaying my plans.

I have never been one to take risks, and that is what some of the waiting is about. I guess I’m writing this post because I am tired of waiting. Monday my new project launches, there are a million thing that could go wrong with it, but I don’t care. This is going to be the one thing that I’m not going to wait on people or myself for. This one I am just going to jump in with both feet and see where I land.

Is the site perfect? No I don’t think so but it is a functioning blog at this point, I will be adding forums shortly. Well, as soon as I can figure out the damn code to make it work the way I want it to.

So at 5:00am March 19 Magenta Scribe will be a working public blog, that I hope will live up to the dream that I have for it. Stop by and see the grand opening post.

No more waiting!

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