justalittlesnarky

Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

justalittlesnarky - Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them but having a great time all the same.

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Just a small fail whale today I guess

the Twitter fail whale error message.

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I guess it was just a baby fail whale, I wonder what baby whales are called. I bet SrCoolGuy will know I will have to ask him once he is done with practice. I don’t think they are whale puppies or kids I am pretty sure that is not right. Hmm, I guess that mystery will just have to wait till the end of this post, due to the fact that I am writing this in the car with no wifi while he takes his sweet country time getting out of practice that ends at 6:30, well lookie here it is after 6:30 and no SrCoolGuy that is why I have time to blog.

Any why back to my baby fail whale. It was not all a loss:

  • I did eat lunch I packed.- Good
  • I did go see about joining the gym downstairs at work.-Good
  • I joined the gym down stairs at work.-Good
  • I canceled my membership with my old gym.-Good
  • I spent some money on joining the new gym but I will save like $20.00 a month. – Sorta good right?
  • I didn’t ride BART- Not good
  • I did drive -Not good

So you can see there was a little fail today, but over all it was a pretty good day in terms of my goals to make all these huge changes at once. I know that is the worst way to make changes, but we well see. I tend to get bored pretty quick so if I have all this to juggle maybe I will keep it all up, I can focus on one of the many things that I am trying to change. I really don’t know if it will work or if I will just crash and burn. I guess only time will tell.

I have to ask a question. Are you supposed to like your personal trainer? I mean should it be some one that you would like to hang out with when you are not at they gym sweating? So as I stated in my list I joined a the gym at work. I was on my way back upstairs when I was side tracked by one of the personal trainers that works there. He took me on a tour of the new space, and then proceeded to tell me how much my fatness was caused by the fact that I am eat ethnic food (mexican and finnish I am) and eating after 7:00pm I am never allowed to have a cookie again and bread is evil, something about it becoming a sponge, water and waste when by. At some point I told him that I ran in the past and with the knee I was pretty sure those days are gone but I had run a half marathon when I was running. We talked some more but he never looked me in the eyes, when we talked about the fact that I am FAT! OHHHMMMMMGGGGG! I am fat! I had not noticed, I just thought I was a conjoined twin or something freaky, I didn’t know I was fat. Well thank you shifty gym guy for setting my strait on that. And thank you for the tips on how to dress for the gym, because I have never step foot in to one before, I would have show up in a cocktail dress and heels. Glad we had that little chat before I showed up all over dressed and shit.

I know how to work I know how to eat right, it is my bad that I have chosen, I will say it again I have chosen to not do those things. And your every so slightly creepy ass will not make me want to change any of that. I have to want to not be forced it to it you said so yourself. So I have to tell him that I don’t think he is the right fit for me as a personal trainer.

The answer to to the baby whale question is Calf.

I can haz pashunce?

A standard-fare BART ticket. Notice the initia...

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Today was successful in a few ways and a somewhat disaster in others. I learned that I spend a lot of money on… nothing really. I don’t buy $1000 shoes or handbags. I don’t have car payments or house payments. But some how I still spend pretty much very penny I get in. I found out that I really don’t like dealing with numbers, it makes me have a headache. I am not so good with numbers or money, but we kinda knew that.

I did manage to ride BART today, so there was no driving. But man I do not like this whole commute thing that happens in the evening. There are tons of people trying to all get on over crowded trains so that is why I need as much patience that I can muster or I will be back to driving in no time.

I also didn’t pay for lunch I managed to bring my lunch and bring some stuff to leave a work so that will make sure that I have stuff there to eat to embellish my lunch that I bring.

I also didn’t spend any money today. So that was a good thing.

Problem solved… I don't need not stinking niche.

All the blogging experts out there will tell you that it is helpful if you blog about something you are passionate about. Now while this is very sound advice, that is just not how this blogger rolls. I was whining here that I was still without a nice neat little place to tuck my blog into, so this has still been on my mind, thanks to all the info that I have been reading on having a “good” blog. Maybe I need to stop reading and just start doing.

I have been bemoaning this on Twitter and Facebook, a short time ago someone (Vince) whom I think has a good blog pointed out that he blogs for himself. This made me stop for a minute and thing about why I blog, the biggest reason is because I can. I started blogging as a way to vent some of the frustration that I was feeling with my life, job and things in general, there was/is a blog that I started to document my journey towards a thinner me by running. And now there is this one. I held on to the old title from the running/weight loss blog, but this has become my only blog, a catch-all blog.   I like a challenge, this has been that at time. I like to try something that is outside of my comfort zone, and this has definitely been that and continues to be that for me. I get bored with things quickly, blogging lets me work on my writing skills by letting me write about what ever is my current obsession.

I have updated my tag line for this blog and it will move to the new home for this blog, once I get it all set up. The new tag line sums up the fact that I know just enough to be dangerous, and this is the direction I am going to take it. What directions would that be you ask? It would be any where we end up as the result of my meandering in my nomadic ramblings in writing.

Anti-Niche= good at many things, not an expert at any of them. Having a great time all the same. Thanks to the peeps over on my Facebook page for helping me draft this tag line.

Editing by SrCoolguy

So close yet so very far away (4/27/10)

As some of you know I have been participating in Script Frenzy this is my fist go at the whole script writing thing. I am not new to the trying to cram a shit load of stuff in to a very small 30 day window.  I did NanoWriMo 2008 and won. Both Months of Insanity are put on by the fine people at the Office of Letters and Light. They are local here to the Bay Area which I really think adds to their cool points in my book, heheh see what I did there …book…writing. no? I tried. They have programs for children  as well and are always looking for donations, if you are looking for a worthy cause and some craziness for 30 days give either one a try and donate. They will love you for it and you get neat things for your forum names as a bonus so everyone know that your one of the good guys, I like being a good guy don’t you want to be one too.

I have many more pages to write on my script on the 21st  I only had 30+ pages right now I have manged to bang out  a grand total of 67 pages, that means I have 3 days left and 33 pages to go. That is 11 pages per day, did I tell you that Thursday I have class. oh and I have homework from my online class as well, that is not due until Sunday but I am going to be at 2010 SF Wordcamp all day so I need to have my homework done early. So here is me begging for good luck wishes that I can complete my script. It has been full of surprise, like to day my Main Character decied that he wanted to merry his girl fiend, shocking I know… the shocking part is that the rest of  the play was based on the fact that he didn’t marry her. We has a lot to talk about, you know how sad it was and how his mom wished that he had married her. This decision let me with a  rewrite  for 2 full scenes that I thought were done.  I have no idea what surprise they have in store for me tomorrow.

… not hahahaha funny. (4/14/10)

I am not the best I can be when I am at work. That may or may not come through in some of my posts in the past. I am superbly unhappy in what I do and where I do it. The work is boring, tedious and not very important to anyone that I work with or for me either. I feel that if I never came back to work no one would even notice that I was not here anymore. Which is just sad if you ask me, but I guess no one has really asked me.

So, here I sit writing this blog post when I am at work, where I am getting paid to well…work. I still do answer the phone when it rings and help people who show up wanting something from me, which is all part of the job, but that is the extent of the “work” that will be done this afternoon or any afternoon for that matter. And again that makes me sad. I want to feel that I do a good job here, I want to feel like I matter but the honest truth about it is I don’t. My boss has a very hands off approach, one could say that he is very much not in the present. He can be here seems to see what is happening but does nothing about it. He is not here even when he is here. That makes it hard to rely on him to do the right thing or anything for that matter.

But this post is not about what he does or doesn’t do, that post would go on forever. It is about how I feel guilty about the way I handle myself at work, it has gotten to the point that it is a problem for me. Having been brought up with a strong, strong, work ethic it is really hard for me to not beat myself up for the time wasting that I do on a daily basis because the job that I am tasked with takes me about 35 minutes in the morning when I come in, to complete and the rest of the day I sit here doing nothing. And as most of you know the other 7.5 hours with nothing to do, feel like 7.5 days. I have told by manager that this is the case, he makes a bunch of pretty promises but keeps none. So I have to try to be OK with the fact that I can do my complete job each day in a fraction of my time and it is OK for me to do what ever it takes to make sure that I don’t go postal on anyone here.

Each week starts the same way for me:

“this week there will be no time wasting at work, you are here to work not play, shop or any of the other million and one things you do to pass the time here” said to self.

I sit down and take care the the 30 minutes of work and find myself , playing, shopping or one of the million things I said I was not going to do this week. And every now and again I have a melt down of possible epic size about how much I hate my job and the fact that I can’t go back or I will just die…die I tell you. I have yet to really die but there are days that it seemed like this might be the big one. I think it is just my sub conscious dealing with stress, or trying to deal with the crazyness that is my work world. I feel that it is the guilt of not being able to give 100% all of the time because the job just isn’t like that, and I don’t know how to be fine with it.

I have to give a great big hand to DH for riding out those temper-filled rants via phone or in person that he has to be part of. He is the one that keeps me coming back to this place because he is the rational one in the relationship. And for that, I have to thank him, and let him know that with out him I would be jobless. I have to have a job and this is the one that I have now, and will keep it for a while longer, at least until I get my schooling under my belt and can get a different type of job.

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